First Time

So I am new to this whole blogging concept. I never had any desire to read blogs... let alone write my own. I find myself in a stage in my life where anger follows me around like a dark cloud, with no silver lining. I don't want to be an angry person. I don't want to hurt anymore. 

 I'm not going to pretend that writing this is a magical panacea to cure all of my pain and wash away my fears, like the tears I can not cry would wash away my waterproof mascara. I guess, I am just writing this as a means to feel heard. I am writing as a means to feel understood, even if no one ever reads it or ever glances at it. Worse, even if it is read and you view me as a monster, please try to understand. 

I am 23 years old. A college graduate, with a degree I've never used. I make less money than most high school dropouts and I get yelled at/cursed at on a daily basis. I have no children. I am not in a committed relationship. Believe it or not... I'm not hideous. I'm very introspective, however, and very rarely let anyone in. If you should decide to continue reading this, you'll grow to understand why. 

To anyone who may have actually read this: Thanks. I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.