Church

As promised... So I went to mass a few weeks ago (Catholic, not that it matters) and decided I don't care for church. I love religion and spirituality but I'm not the biggest fan of organized religion. I know it may sound strange coming from someone raised in a religious family, but I found the entire experience unnerving. 

We sat in mass, listening to the priest drone on about the importance of donating to the church and not feeling at all connected to God. Granted, when the collection plate is passed, I will put money in gladly. Not for the reasons that the priest preached. He told me I wasn't giving to the church for myself or for my neighbors and not even for my community but that I was doing it for God. God doesn't need my $20. God doesn't need me to show my love by placing a "not-so-anonymous" donation into a "pledge envelope".   

Maybe it's just me... or maybe it's silly. I don't know. I do know that I've never felt further from God than I did in the church. I guess I am just going to go back to praying each night before I sleep. It calms me so much more.